A-Z MUSIC CHALLENGE

AKON:RIGHT NOW(NA NA NA)..i DECIDED THIS SONG FOR MY A B/C I JUST LOVE AKON AND ITS REALLY HARD TO JUST PICK ONE AKON SONG AND RIGHT NOW JUST SUITED BEST :)

Been Awhile

So its been awhile so ive blogged. Havent really been up to much on Friday the 27th Dr Hull cut open Camrons jaw and put some gauze inside. Sunday it was taken out. Today is Monday. its lookin a lot better, its not so big and hard. Gotta go back Wed to see him again. Lets see what else has been going on..

Friday night a friend of mine and her boy and boyfriend stayed the night and went home saturday-we had fun.

me and susan

 i think the kids had more fun tho. as adults we run outta stuff to do pretty quickly and it didnt help that i just didnt have any energy.

Camron and Damien

Young Love

lets see Sunday just stayed home and watched movies and played on facebook just like any other day. Today I have actually done something productive. I walked for abt 20 mins outside. it was hot i was sweaty but it was good for me. I wish i could get back into my walkin mode like i was doing. i wanna get to my goal weight but i doubt i will by any certain date-o well life goes on. Anywho i guess ill go

Well i missed a day of the song challenge and didnt even know it. I thought i had did it yesterday. o well. anyways so yesterday i took my daughter to the hospital for a CAT scan on her jaw abt 1030ish AM then abt 445PM then doc called and said we had to bring her back in the doctor office to pop open her sore. so they poked it open with a needle and some puss came out and they sent it off to get looked at and so monday morning i haveta call her dentist and tell them she needs to be seen cuz she has an absessed tooth..at 3 years old! Im just glad its not painful. she doesnt even know its there til someone says sommin abt it. o well ill just be happy to get this all over with bc her gettin poked at and stuff is gettin to me lol Then yesterday i didnt even get to talk to my best friend cuz shes on vacation with her fiance Nathan til Sunday so thats driving me nuts ugh. since ive been out of the hospital myself its been one right after the other but its all good im just tryin to not let little things get to my anymore my meds are helpin a lot with that bc any other time i wouldve already been flippin out with stress and not being able to talk THANK YOU BLOGGER!!!

DAY 2: WEDDING SONG

I PICKED GOD BLESS THE BROKEN ROAD BY RASCALL FLATTS FOR MY WEDDING SONG FOR THE WEDDING DAY SONG CHALLANGE JUST CUZ IT JUST SEEMED RIGHT AND ITS WHAT I WHAT TO PLAY AT MY WEDDING BUT I HAD A COURT WEDDING

30 DAY SONG CHALLANGE

DAY 1
SAVING ABEL:18 DAYS
MY FAVORITE SONG AS OF RIGHT NOW CUZ I LOVE THE TUNEAGE AND THE MESSAGE IT BRINGS

Just Another Day

So today is another day...
Another day of barely sleeping
Another day of heavy eyes
Another day of anger
Another day of needing meds that i dont have
Another day of wanting to flip out
Yup just another flippen day!

I'm hopin to get some help today
I'm hoping that they will help me
I'm hoping I get better
Yup just hopin...

Just another day of waah waah waah from Camron not getting her way
Just another day of cartoons
Just another day of goin crazy

Crazy you say??
you dont know what crazy is???
Crazy is being a lil girl that gets hurt
Crazy is a grown woman still getting hurt
Crazy is me hearing stuff that aint there
Crazy is me seeing horrible horrible stuff
Crazy is me flippin out bc I can't handle stress and all the bad stuff
Crazy is what I'm goin thru bc HE didnt register like he was supposed to
Yup call me crazy for wanting to be safe but dont know how.

YUP JUST ANOTHER DAY

my life..from then til now

What causes Depression??

Abt 9 years old....

the man you did bad bad things to a lil girl(me)

ROBERT DOUGLAS KING

For me when I was molested..yes

I remember one certain night in particular its stamped in my brain

I hate dark and stormy nights by myself

My (ex) step father came in where I was sleepin

My (ex) step father did stuff to me

My mom did NOTHING til the next morning

I'm scared

He's in prison

 

4th grade starts having problems.....

 

Seeing and hearing stuff keeping to myself not talking ..some say it was shyness..well what do they know?

7th grade MOVED to a different town

Summer met my best friend that I still have Andrea

8th Grade 9/11 happened i cried..

He's out of prison

OH NO!

He didn't register

Where is he???

Try to live my life Try to live my life Try to live my life

 

High School

Freshman scared but got a boyfriend dont trust him

started smokin weed..feel a lot better no more voices no more seeing when i smoke

Sophmore having problems both mentally and physically...still hasnt registered..WHERE IS HE???

started having blackouts and seeing stuff that was there and hearing stuff that wasnt there

at home flipped out cut myself multiple times

got admitted to Lakeland Hospital

came home

still having problems at home and at school

 

Got a job

MY FIRST JOB!

Shoney's

Food bar..not hard..right?? right??

WRONG

first couple months went by not to bad

kept working

too many ppl but it aint that busy of a restuarant

feeling anxious

not concentrating

tryin to keep things full

tryin to keep things clean

trying

trying

trying

school failing

work failing

home failing

boyfriend failing

had to quit

He's registered in St Louis..but has been seen in Mnt Grove with a family ...Poor kids :(

Junior a little better mentally not so much stress but still dont feel good

Got a job. Mcdonald's

A month later..hada quit

Prom was good

Summer met the man of my dreams

Senior YAY!?!?

Me and Andrea and my new Best friend Stephanie just the 3 of us..then Susan..

Feb 1 2006

+ ??? IM PREGNANT?!?!?!?

...A FEW DAYS LATER...

+ Steph's pregnant

at least i aint alone

a month or 2 later

+ Susans pregnant

waiting on Andrea lol

2010 still waiting on Andrea

 

2006

May 2006

Prom Sucked

Graduation sucked

Camron's baby dady passed away .. WHAT??!!!

summer..pregnant..daddy passed away..now what?

and he got another chick knocked up

Sept 2006

Close to due date

in and out the hospital for a week

Tues Sept 19th in hospital ..go home..went to docts the next day

Wed Sept 20 go straight to hospital

need epidural

need c-section..WHAT??!!!

almost died..couldnt breathe

1:02 AM Thurs Sept 21 2006

Camron Nicole's here

Camron and MeMa (day old)

 wake up

She's so beautiful

a month later....

everything in my head is back voices seeing stuff everything

2007

Camrons first bday

Nov 2007 start seein a guy that i was friends with in High School

January 2008 we break up

January 2008 I start dating Cliff

everythings good i feel good i feel safe

5 months later...

July 1,2008 day before i turned 21

You may Kiss the Bride

everything starts going down hill

can't handle stress

everything starts going bad again

Where is he?

Last I heard registered in Mnt Grove

ok im good i guess

Where did 2009 go??

so many problems to name

2010

Feb hada good weekend for Valentines day with hubby

July hada a good 2 yr anny with my hubby

July hada a good bday with my bestie

NOT REGISTERING AGAIN??? ARE YOU KIDDING ME???!!!

not sleepin

drawing

drawing

drawing

what am i drawing

what i see...i see death a lot

Aug 1st..GREAT day with my besties Andrea and Steph

Aug 11

Not doing so good again.

Might get checked in to hospital

not sleeping

not caring for myself tryin to care for her

need help

September

Troops Tribute "18 Days" by Saving Abel

has had this song stuck in my head for abt a week now ....and its awesome they are tributing it to our troops. GOD BLESS AMERICA AND THE TROOPS SERVING OUR COUNTRY :)

Gettin to know me :)

that would be me and my everyday look

 

1. If you were to win an award today, what would it be for?

the laziest person

2. What is your shoe style?

flip flops :)

3 Does your car reflect your personality?

Not really

4. If you could take over someones body for a day..whose would you choose?

My cousin Brittany's body..is has the perfect body ever

5. Love or be loved?

be loved

cuz im not sure on how to love

6. If you were on death row, what last meal would you choose?

steak(kinda pink in the middle) real mashed taters with white country gravy corn on the cob and a piece of  hot baked apple pie with a 2 scoops of icecream on top .. YUMMY :)

7. Have you been on vacation this Summer, if so where?

Nope no vacation for me..stupid jeep broke down so i hada pay for that

8. What is your favorite food related guilty pleasure?

chinese i could eat that all day everyday

All About Camron Nicole

Camron with MeMa

A day old

Camron Nicole Morrison

Born

September 21,2006

1:02 Am

20 inches long

MY PRIDE AND JOY

First Halloween she was a duck

First Thanksgiving she didnt eat regular food

First Christmas she was in a play at church playin baby Jesus :)

Got lots of Presents

2007

First New Year's Eve went to Aunt Carrie's house

First Valentine's Day Mommy got me a big bear

All my First Holidays after that was GREAT!!!

Sept 21,2007

My 1st Birthday :)

So Cute :)

Can you find me!

2008

Mommy finds me a new daddy :)

cuz mine passed away :(

Daddy Cliff reading to me

me the first night in my big girl bed

i was so proud

Dont I look so adorable?

Me and My Primo(cousin) Marcus's birthday cake

Me turning 2

Marcus turning 1

2009

my 1st carnival ride :)

 

my first hair cut

and I wasnt scared :)

My Uncle Robbie and I

going potty like a big girl

so proud :)

me :)

Halloween 2009

me and mommy

2010

me and boyfriend Damien Trent

he's only 2 months younger then me

me and my bestie Breanna Nicole

She's only 4 days younger than me :)

best friends 4 lyfe

ROCKIN OUT!!

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My bio daddy Scott Neal's family

my bio daddy

Scott Neal R.I.P.

My Aunt Laura and Uncle Chuck

from my bio daddy

my older brother Dustin Lee Neal

my younger sister

Andrea Breann Ross

my cousins from Aunt Laura

Kade

Cheyenne

Gracie

Kade Cheyenne Me my sister Andrea and Gracie

Papa Ranney Gracie Cheyenne Nana Tammy me Kade Andrea

me and Nana

great Grandpa Larry and Aunt Laurie and Me

Aunt Laura and Me

me and my sister Andrea when we were younger with Andrea's grandma Cindy

MY LIFE RIGHT NOW!

So I decided to start a blog. Im very very new at this so bear with me :) I dont really do much i take care of my daughter whose turnin 4 next month. Im married to Cliff but we are very complicated right now. I have a dog that will be a year in the next few months his name is Floppy and hes a lazy mutt. We also have a hamster named Elephant that aint a year old yet shes all black and is a teddy bear hamster shes all furry. We also have a new edition a cat named Tiger hes only a few months old and so cute he was sick at first but we gave him medicine and now he's all lovey dovey. Right now I dont really have any hobbies except bein on Facebook and I'm hopin I can get this blogging down I'm wanting to start learning how to make cakes and decorating them my daughter kind of inspired me bc she wanted me to make her a cake this year instead of buyin one :) so Im doin cupcakes and doing elmo faces on them I hope it turns out ok. Well I guess I will go Cake Boss-new episode-is on.. see ya!!