What causes Depression??
Abt 9 years old....
the man you did bad bad things to a lil girl(me)
ROBERT DOUGLAS KING
For me when I was molested..yes
I remember one certain night in particular its stamped in my brain
I hate dark and stormy nights by myself
My (ex) step father came in where I was sleepin
My (ex) step father did stuff to me
My mom did NOTHING til the next morning
I'm scared
He's in prison
4th grade starts having problems.....
Seeing and hearing stuff keeping to myself not talking ..some say it was shyness..well what do they know?
7th grade MOVED to a different town
Summer met my best friend that I still have Andrea
8th Grade 9/11 happened i cried..
He's out of prison
OH NO!
He didn't register
Where is he???
Try to live my life Try to live my life Try to live my life
High School
Freshman scared but got a boyfriend dont trust him
started smokin weed..feel a lot better no more voices no more seeing when i smoke
Sophmore having problems both mentally and physically...still hasnt registered..WHERE IS HE???
started having blackouts and seeing stuff that was there and hearing stuff that wasnt there
at home flipped out cut myself multiple times
got admitted to Lakeland Hospital
came home
still having problems at home and at school
Got a job
MY FIRST JOB!
Shoney's
Food bar..not hard..right?? right??
WRONG
first couple months went by not to bad
kept working
too many ppl but it aint that busy of a restuarant
feeling anxious
not concentrating
tryin to keep things full
tryin to keep things clean
trying
trying
trying
school failing
work failing
home failing
boyfriend failing
had to quit
He's registered in St Louis..but has been seen in Mnt Grove with a family ...Poor kids :(
Junior a little better mentally not so much stress but still dont feel good
Got a job. Mcdonald's
A month later..hada quit
Prom was good
Summer met the man of my dreams
Senior YAY!?!?
Me and Andrea and my new Best friend Stephanie just the 3 of us..then Susan..
Feb 1 2006
+ ??? IM PREGNANT?!?!?!?
...A FEW DAYS LATER...
+ Steph's pregnant
at least i aint alone
a month or 2 later
+ Susans pregnant
waiting on Andrea lol
2010 still waiting on Andrea
2006
May 2006
Prom Sucked
Graduation sucked
Camron's baby dady passed away .. WHAT??!!!
summer..pregnant..daddy passed away..now what?
and he got another chick knocked up
Sept 2006
Close to due date
in and out the hospital for a week
Tues Sept 19th in hospital ..go home..went to docts the next day
Wed Sept 20 go straight to hospital
need epidural
need c-section..WHAT??!!!
almost died..couldnt breathe
1:02 AM Thurs Sept 21 2006
Camron Nicole's here
Camron and MeMa (day old)
wake up
She's so beautiful
a month later....
everything in my head is back voices seeing stuff everything
2007
Camrons first bday
Nov 2007 start seein a guy that i was friends with in High School
January 2008 we break up
January 2008 I start dating Cliff
everythings good i feel good i feel safe
5 months later...
July 1,2008 day before i turned 21
You may Kiss the Bride
everything starts going down hill
can't handle stress
everything starts going bad again
Where is he?
Last I heard registered in Mnt Grove
ok im good i guess
Where did 2009 go??
so many problems to name
2010
Feb hada good weekend for Valentines day with hubby
July hada a good 2 yr anny with my hubby
July hada a good bday with my bestie
NOT REGISTERING AGAIN??? ARE YOU KIDDING ME???!!!
not sleepin
drawing
drawing
drawing
what am i drawing
what i see...i see death a lot
Aug 1st..GREAT day with my besties Andrea and Steph
Aug 11
Not doing so good again.
Might get checked in to hospital
not sleeping
not caring for myself tryin to care for her
need help
September
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